After a spat with JP over money ( or lack thereof, on my side of the financial arena) I got depressed, unmotivated and started craving chocolate. BIG TIME. So, I snacked on a *small* half-palmful of chocolate chips and decided to make some coffee to wake-up and motivate myself with a little energy boost to workout. I also hoped that the coffee creamer I added would satisfy my sweet tooth and keep me from hitting the chips again. Then, I saw this video on Perez Hilton www.perezhilton.com and regretted every chocolate morsel!!! Seriously. These women are from another planet. No way they are human.
OH, and did I mention, that after a 2 hour attempt at getting through 30 reps of MS with my ankle weights, I'm sitting here at 1:13am fighting with myself about doing dance cardio. I've decided to do a 10 minute BC segment with the ankle weights on and just double up on cardio tomorrow. Not a good excuse, but it's just been one of those days. If I don't get good news about the radio gig, I'm going to go into freak out mode. Seriously stressed.
I ended up getting through 20 minutes of BC cardio (working at about 60% effort) wearing my ankle weights. It was after 2am when I finally crawled into bed and it took forever to fall asleep-- I kept tossing and turning thinking about finances, job options, etc....Needless to say, I slept terribly, woke up to my dog Clyde throwing up all over the carpet and was afraid to get on the scale after my midnight chocolate sabotage. I almost didn't-- justifying to myself, "Just weigh yourself tomorrow-- no use making yourself feel worse if you gained anything-- you don't need any more negative energy to bring you down. And so what if you have put on a pound? No one has to know!!!"
But, I also remembered that this blog is about accountability and truth. So, let the truth be known, no matter how good, bad or pockmarked with cellulite it is! *BREATHE*.
OK, so I stepped on the scale, exhaled and looked at the number: 167.2! Down another 1.4 pounds!!! YAY!! That's a total of 9.4 pounds in a week! Maybe it was visualizing that those chocolate chips didn't go straight to my ass that worked....whatever it is, my day is already feeling better with that positive scale experience. NOTE: We should never judge a day by the numbers we see on the scale-- that's an evil trap....I know. But in this case, it is one of the only things I can confidently celebrate at this moment!
Now, if I can just get some good news from Georgia Public Broadcasting.....