Day 3 and Wagon Crash

Starving again. All day. Weigh in this morning was 169.4, another pound down, and then after a (finally) successful salt water flush and laxative tea, down one more pound to 168.4. THEN, it all fell apart. I snarfed down 3 oranges and had a few nibbles off of the lasagna I made JP along with some cornbread croutons. Son of a BEE-ATCH! Having my period isn't helping things...and I keep talking myself into stopping the cleanse and starting a TAM workout again, but I know I must finish this!!!

Back on track tomorrow. Just finished some more Dieter's Tea which is much stronger than Smooth Move.

Update in the morning! 8 more days...Come on, Parker! You can do this! Hopefully, I can drop below 160 and then shed another 10+. Goal is to go home on 12/23 at sub 150 lbs which, at this point, would be a small miracle.

Day 3

So here's the weight update:

Beginning of Day 1: 171.8

Beginning of Day 2: 170.4

Beginning of Day 3: 169.4

So, a grand total of 2.4 pounds since beginning of Day 1. I am fucking starving right now. And I miss chewing and tasting! The salt water flush and the Smooth Move tea weren't entirely effective yesterday....things weren't exactly, well...MOVING. So, I had the Super Dieter's Tea this morning, which brings back memories of horrible abdominal cramping and diarrhea.

I'm really ready to see that scale move lower--as in into the upper 140's range. I also just want to feel better-- totally reset my taste buds, my health, and successfully detox my system.

JP ordered pizza lastnight and I wanted to murder him it smelled so good. And now, the entire pizza (second pizza) that I would have eaten by myself is sitting in the fridge, taunting me.

FUCK.

Day 1 Complete

SO, my day didn't start until today, a day after I anticipated starting. Not a minute too late, since the scale read: 171.8 lbs. JESUS Freaking Christ.

I was hungry around 2pm, took a bath, felt majorly nauseous and took a nap. Got zero accomplished except for baking a shitty cake which I ate some icing off of....and some mini-turkey pot pies which I also "tasted." My ass is sore from the many trips to the bathroom and I'm exhausted.

Hopefully tomorrow will be more productive and easier to get through.

GRUMP.

Mistress of the Master Cleanse

Tomorrow starts my Master Cleanse 2011! 2010 was highly successful, with a huge weight loss and the kick off to my Tracy Anderson body extraordinaire! I tried the cleanse twice earlier this year and wasn't able to get past Day 5-- I chalked it up to stress. I always liken the MC to running a marathon--- 70% is mental power. I am tipping the scales at close to 170 and MUST drop some weight...but even more importantly (seriously) is the detox element. I have been breaking out in hives, rashes, and fits of tears....IT SUCKS. Detoxing from Wellbutrin, Adderal, Gluten and, apparently, my formerly happy self. I am hoping for that crystal clarity that happened around Day 7 last year. I had insane energy and creative flow....no hunger and only desire for healthy food. I am ready to change my life. It starts now. Well, um....after the rest of this bottle of wine. ( ;

Back on track (almost.)

If the pic on the right was me today, I would be ON track, bigtime! Not so much. That was 20-25 pounds thinner last year. OY VAY.

So, yesterday, after my abominable Large Pizza binge, (make that Large SUPREME Pizza binge), I tipped the scale at 169.8 lbs. I mean, why not just break 170, Parkster? Serious gluten-intervention was necessary. I ate a small bowl of gluten-free cereal with blueberries and almond milk, had lentil soup with a gluten-free roll and some chicken with rice and veggies lastnight. No workout, but it was a better day all around as far as food goes. OH- and a handful of chocolate covered espresso beans, which I'm beginning to think might be giving me bad gas. / :

This morning, scale was 166.8 lbs, a 3 pound weight loss, which leads me to believe that all that cheese and dough were the culprits. Today, I did the full 45 minute mat workout, although no cardio. (Walking the dogs doesn't count!) Since getting off the medication, I am hungrier in a compulsive way-- like, wanting to eat when I'm not hungry, so I have to keep that in check. I'm also way thirstier, which is probably my body's way of telling me that it needs to flush itself out. I must truly be detoxing because I slept until 10:30am this morning which is unheard of for me!!

Today's food was OK-- 2 gluten free rolls, some more lentil soup, some rice noodles with homemade pad thai sauce, watermelon and another handful of espresso beans (with more gas, thank you very much!)

With the prospect of getting back on TV, I am more motivated than ever to get myself back in fighting shape-- I simply have to drop 20 lbs. I'm convinced that the whole body-mind connection is essential with TA--- as much as I like watching TV when doing that mat video, I have been focusing on connecting-- even while Criminal Minds has me captivated!

The best thing is, each day it gets easier...

Here is my motivating pic of the week-- back when I was about 140-145 lbs and regularly doing both cardio and mat daily. My arms are beast! (AND, I'm holding cake on a stick--- oh, the irony!)

how many times are we going to restart this crap??

C'mon, Parker. Seriously, Woman. Buck up, lady and start your damn program!!!!!

I'm so upset with myself for being so freaking lazy and not following through with my TA workout.

Stats today were 165.8 lbs.

And, now that I ate an entire large Supreme Papa John's Pizza (OK, I didn't eat 2 pieces, but might as well have, fatso!!) I'm very worried about what the scale will read. Oh yeah, and the 10 Oreos. Awesome.

I am thinking about Master Cleansing after Thanskgiving, but we'll see how this week goes.

2 months later...Yikes.

OK, Ya'll. Here's the lowdonw: Since my last post, I fell off the TA wagon, got mired in depression, went broke, started a bonbon business, earned some money, went broke again and promptly put on 10 more pounds. Did you get that last part? I PUT ON 10 (TEN!!!) MORE POUNDS.

Part of that weight gain may be attributed to the fact that I also stopped taking all my medication. No more Adderall. No more Wellbutrin. The fact that the cost of my Adderall prescription went from $30 to $120 was a good motivator, but I knew deep down that it was the right time to go "au natural." Both those medications increase metabolism, so stopping them both is bound to slow it down-- atleast at first.

Fortunately, my foot seems to have healed, and I'm confident I can get back to cardio without pain or issues. I just had a great consultation with Dee Ragin, a homeopathic wellness coach who prescribes the "Eat Right for Your Type" Diet. I was shocked and horrified to find out that I'm A+ which, according to the ERFYT diet, works best with a....(gasp, snort, sniffle...) VEGETARIAN diet. GULP. I hate vegetables. I don't like eating them. I don't like cooking them. I often forget about the vegetable portion of dinner until it's almost too late to make some!!!! I'm probably the only chick on Earth who hates salads. Well, I like salads that have, um, BACON. Ya know. That kind of salad.

Well, now this bee-atch needs a serious detox. Not a master cleanse detox...yet. Dee suggested that I should do a raw cleanse-- sticking to veggies, fruits, smoothies, juicing, etc...I truly feel that's what I need to get healthy.

AND...what I really need is to get back to my girl Tracy. TODAY. I'm getting back to basics and plan to do the original TA mat workout with an additional 45-60 min cardio workout. Both. Everyday.

I'm going home to DC in 6 weeks and want to have this weight OFF. 170 and counting. At this point, just to be down to 150 would be amazing. I WILL do this!!!!